Second To Last Post

Sorry guys, but I can't continue the blog. Graduation is indeed 17 days away and I have everything to be excited for, but recently my best friend Brice Murphy died. I think I made a post about him earlier this year before Spring Break, but I find nothing exciting about school anymore, not since Brice isn't going to be there for it anymore.

I'm not going to quit on life. That's a promise I've made to myself, but the promise I will make to Brice is this: I will spend my life doing what it is that I love, doing what I want, because life can be easily taken away before someone's done what it is that they want.

I know that if Brice was in my life for several more years it would be great, it would be a much better life, but this is something that I'm going to have to get used to this. Wish me luck and look for my last post for the last day of school.

http://seniorchucklemaster.blogspot.com/2015/03/brice-murphy.html

Brice Murphy

Thank goodness and all that's above for my most awesome friend Brice Murphy. I've only known him for three months now but I've felt we've been friends for longer, almost a lifetime I swear! But, in truth, I've never met anyone like him. I mean the guy is so full of wisdom and smart ideas and he's so up-to-date with his psyche. The great thing about Brice is that, with his great wisdom, he does what he can to use it to help people. You know I don't think I've ever been annoyed by him at all! There is nothing annoying about him. He's just that kind of person who will give someone his full attention and makes them feel good, he's a lot like my uncle. Oh my gosh, and all the times that we've gotten together and just chilled have been the best! I especially love how he is dating my friend Alycia (Cia) because they are just perfect together, they are so great and I don't think they'd find someone better in their high school years.

What I've loved about Brice is how helpful he's been with me. The other week I almost had a meltdown at work and I talked to him for thirty minutes and he just helped to calm me down and figure things out. I didn't enjoy going back to work, but I did feel better; I wasn't as stressed nor upset. To me, Brice is my twin; meaning we're very much alike! Everyday after art class we walk together to meet up with our friends at lunch and we're just arguing the entire way over something ridiculous, but it just goes to show how stubborn we both are. And, I don't know, I'm just happy with Brice there. I guess I've kind of stayed with Tim because of Brice.

And, whatever weird way the universe works in, I feel like I've known Brice for longer than I actually have. I feel like we were actually twins sometime in a past life. Whatever twins we were, I kind of hope we weren't like Selene Cleopatra and Alexander Helios (Cleopatra's children) because Selene lost her brother and I don't want to lose Brice. There's so much life left for him to live and I hope that our paths stay straight and aligned for a long time.

So, thank you, Brice, for helping me and for being my little brother.

Day 123 - 126

So I've been gone for quite a while and that's all due to me getting the last of my wisdom teeth out. Yay! Surprisingly the pain wasn't all that terrible, my bottoms seemed a lot worse. So yeah I've missed out on a lot of school and have a lot of homework to catch up on when Monday comes around.

Day 122

Holy cow, I am so not ready to be back at school. I had to set seven alarms on my phone and use my digital just to ensure that I wouldn't miss the bus! The morning was alright, I actually helped my friend Sabrina through something that was troubling her. I feel bad and kind of wish there was more that I could do for her besides just be at her side and not be able to really do SOMETHING. Like I said, the morning was alright. My caterpillar is doing a phenomenal job, especially since Jezzie is all tucked up in her cocoon and will be hatching sometime soon. In art we have continued to try to use charcoal to draw the human figure in various forms and values and I totally hate it. Don't get me wrong, the curriculum is good but I just really suck at figure drawing. More practice will help, that's for sure.

In personal Finance it was just a day to catch up on our work and turn in anything that is missing, yada yada. And choir we're getting ready for our two music competitions!

Day 121

Today was just an assembly that happened to be so boring and easily ditchable. Because of this and next week being the PARCC testing all my classes didn't do much. So, until March I won't be posting thanks to my week off!

Day 120

Didn't go to school today.

Day 119

As it is Wednesday, I only have ONE class to go to and that happens to be a pretty good class. Today we've spent doing our critiques on each other's works and it turned out pretty good. Actually most of the class was finished so that was REALLY good. And then we got started on figure drawing. So far, I suck.

Afterwards, I had to stay in the library as AP Lang and AP Lit students did their MOCK exams and boy did that suck. All that necessary silence and boredom. Nope, no me gusta!

Day 118

It's been a pretty good day today. My Caterpillar, Jezzie, is growing like a maniac, which kind of made me sad as a Biology parent. Personal Finance we've gotten our checks in place, learning how to use them and how to keep track of our accounts easily. Then Choir we've worked on our songs for our concert. I'm pretty nervous to see how it goes since I get the nagging feeling that we're not going to be as prepared as we should be.

Day 117

I promise you, I hate Mondays and Fridays. Both these days seem to make the week extra long and I really don't need that, especially today. Of course, since I didn't close at work last night I had to take the bus and sit for two hours in the library. Normally, I would enjoy sitting in the library instead of having a class, but I would prefer to get some sleep. Why? Because I'm a teenager! I love sleep! Need it all the time!

Let's see, so today was just an easy day for Biology (coloring and notes) and in Art I finished my abstract piece and it was pretty good, though I wish I could have had more time on it and made it look better and more presentable. Personal Finance we're learning about checks, and in choir we're getting ready for our concert.

Day 116

In Biology we have continued our Caterpillar project and holy freaking cow! My caterpillar freaking grew! I'm so proud of my baby Jezzy, she's gotten so big. And then my abstract art is looking closer to completion.

Personal Finance we took our chapter test and I feel like a total failure. Not my best test grade. And then choir we've got one week! ONE freaking WEEK until our CONCERT. One week to memorize "I'm Going To Sing" and whatever group song Ms. Hazard has us singing. Don't know how the concert is going to go exactly, but I have not been proud of my choir skills at all this year and I feel the same for this concert. Also I ran around the school for Ira asking teachers if they'd be willing to judge for his Speech and Debate stuff. That was actually pretty fun.

Day 115

Today was a REALLY freaking EASY day. I worked really hard on completing my art piece - which I almost am! - and it looks so freaking awesome. Totes love it! Then I spent my entire afternoon in the library, annoying Ira as always. Because he's so awesome, I have taken to calling him Big Brother. Everyone thinks its from 1984 because the continual hawk-eye of the government, but I just do it because that's just the way Ira is. It's totes awesome. I also found out his middle name!!! So cool!

Day 114

Today was a pretty easy and chill day in Bio. We actually took some pretty good notes and then we watched a video about DNA. It was nice because I was able to take my Caterpillar down and have her/he watch it with me. In Personal Finance we did some worksheets to get us prepared for the test that we have on Thursday. Then in Choir we worked more on our music and for like half the class period we were trying to figure out the kind of songs we could use for our Pops concert that was on Broadway - Wicked, The Phantom of the Opera, West Side Story, Cats, The Lion King, etc. Nothing too bad I guess.

Day 113

Gosh, today's been such a freaking off day! I don't know, Biology was pretty cool, especially since we're doing this new lab project where we get to grow our own caterpillars!!! Yes, that is what has excited me most about today, but Art kind of excited me as well, especially since I'm actually GETTING SOMEWHERE with my piece. Yeah, I've just got to paint over the texture paste I used and then glaze the thing and I should be pretty good. I'm really pumped up for this!

Personal Finance is getting interesting. We've got worksheets learning about equations for wages and benefits. Easy math, this I like. Then choir we're getting more into our music. Since I wasn't here on Friday, I couldn't give/get my valentine's gift for our Secret-Valentine. So, during school I was able to give my gift to MY valentine, Montana Porter - bless her sweet soul. It was really awesome, I got her a little stuffed lion and some chocolate...but I'm getting her more stuff tomorrow! And, freaking Kellisha, I love that woman. My best friend in choir, Kellisha, had me as her valentine and she freaking played Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars and just seductively handed me my Valentine bag and it was just freaking amazing! She got me so much flipping chocolate, like those little Reese's butter cups and some Kit-Kats and Peanut M&Ms!!! And there was a fake rose in there and a note that had our little inside joke (we both love Titanic the movie so I'm her Jack and she's my Rose and we love singing My Heart Will Go On by Celine Dion) which the rose perfectly fit! And then there were two letters in the bag. The first was just amazing and I couldn't help but laugh and just love it. The second, in plain writing, stated I was only to open when I was sad, and I was kind of feeling that way today so I opened it and freaking Kellisha! Bless that woman, she knew how to make my fucked up day so much better.

Truth? I would have quit choir in a heartbeat if I could have, because with Ms. Hazard it isn't the same, I don't feel the love for music radiating off of her as I feel like it should. I was even ready to just give up choir for this semester when I had to fix my schedule, but I couldn't. I couldn't leave my choir girls, my Altos. Those girls are what made me feel the music again, they made me feel the love and raw emotion that was missing and I couldn't just leave them after they gave me something so wonderful. I'm really happy I didn't ditch out on choir, because singing is my life! Those amazing girls are my life, and I wouldn't be truly living if I just up and left them and the music. Life would not ever be the same if I just quit on music. And I'm really glad I didn't.

Day 112

Didn't go to school today, had to go to my Uncle Roy's funeral.

Day 111

Today feels like it's been a pretty busy day. We got our scores back for our written part of our exam for Biology and my prediction was right; I got a D+. Yeah, I'm not very happy about that...that actually makes me feel sad, especially since I worked pretty hard for that exam. Guess I should study more. Also, art was the same, working on my Abstract piece, personal finance we have continued with learning about W-4s and taxes and stuff. Also, in choir, my teacher did the most strangest thing.

For once, I actually showed up early and Ms. Hazard said that she wanted to give me something, an article that she had read and she said that she instantly thought about me. She printed out a copy and told me to give it a try. What was this article? It was Singing Christian Music (Part 1) by Joshua Bronfman. It was about how to get into singing Christian Music written by a Jewish man. Yes, I read it. Yes, I gave it a try, but this is SO NOT for me. Why? Because, though it's a point of view that helps in a way, I'm Pagan, this man is Jewish. Judaism is in very, very close relation to Christianity. Paganism is far from it. Of course there are conflicting views Christians and Jews have with each other's views, but I bet they'd band together against a Pagan like me.

Anyway, here's a link to the article. I don't know, check it out if you want, but...

http://www.choralnet.org/460406

Day 110

Today's been a pretty easy day, just went to art and focused more on my Abstract art. I like how it's coming along, actually, very Marilynn Monroe. And I spent the rest of the afternoon in the library. I swear, I love that place! I enjoy it so much, especially since it's basically just me helping Ira and Cynthia. Also it's a calming atmosphere, well it would be more if there were some incense sticks, but other than that it's just the perfect place for me to just be at.

Day 109

Today started out as alright. I took my Biology exam today and I feel very  confident on the Lab part but I don't know about the lecture...my confidence does not rise above for the lecture part. We've just been working on checks and W-4s for Personal Finance and in choir we really worked on our new music and I was able to do a presentation about myself. Not too bad of a day I would say.

Day 108

The big exam for Biology is tomorrow and I'm pretty nervous, this is only because I feel like I'll try to suck all the information in at once but then it'll all fall out! I don't need that for the exam, I just need to do freaking well. My Abstract Art piece is going pretty well, though I don't think I emphasized on my subject enough, but that's fine; it's not like I'm gonna sell it or anything for that matter.

Our teacher for Personal Finance wasn't in today so we got to watch more about Dave Ramsey, all about getting a job and stuff. It's actually pretty nice, I really enjoy watching him and learning from him. And my choir teacher has returned to school presenting a new song for us to learn by February 26, and tomorrow we're supposed start on the other song tomorrow. I don't know if I should be happy or not...

Day 107

Still studying for Biology, still working on my art project, still doing this and still doing that. Wow, I've just gotten to realize how freaking boring my Senior year is going. I know I heard a story once about a class project this school did for Seniors and this one girl decided to pretend to be pregnant to see how she would be viewed because of it and how it would affect her school life and her family life. What she did was freaking brilliant, I kind of wish I could do something that amazing. I don't know, I just feel like my Senior year is becoming a waste right now; a freaking waste of potential.

Day 106

Today has been a pretty easy day, coloring and studying for our exam in Biology, starting the Abstract Art project, finishing our resumes in Personal Finance, and finishing Hairspray in choir - THANK WHOEVER FOR FREAKING JOHN TRAVOLTA PLAYING A WOMAN!!! Anyway, that was my day.

Day 105

My only class today turned out pretty good. Still haven't finished my Still Life for art, but I've gotten started on planning my next piece - our Abstract piece. I think I'm going to do a cheetah. I did one a couple years ago - but not for an Abstract art piece. Then I was in the library for sixth hour and then went and hung out with my boyfriend and some of our friends until school got out. Yeah, today was pretty good.

Day 104

I missed the first thirty minutes of Biology and missed the live birth, something I don't mind whatsoever. Personal Finance we're still taking the personality tests, we actually did a worksheet about three different careers we would be interested in pursuing for future reference. Then Choir we didn't have Ms. Hazard again and we got some pretty bad news. The music that was ordered for our concert in three weeks - two pieces by the way - came in the mail but the box appeared to have been torn open...we lost our music. Yeah, this doesn't sit well with me. Three weeks until the concert and we've just...I feel that we're screwed. Of course it isn't Ms. Hazard's fault, but still three weeks. It took a month for us to memorize one piece and we're still trying to make it sound good, but now we have to push full throttle on memorizing two more pieces that won't sound as good as if we had them at the beginning of the quarter.

Day 103

Holy crap, it's already Monday. Wow. I am so freaking exhausted. Yes, today has been a day, especially for Biology. We've started this move called the Miracle of Life, basically about the reproductive system. I'm very surprised that we are required to learn this for my college Biology class but my school can't even have a Sex Ed class....not very smart for public school system. In Art I have to finish up my Still Life piece, though I'm still not close to finishing. Personal Finance we're discovering ourselves; taking little tests for our career interests and personality tests. It's alright, except for the fact I've already finished with these. In Choir Ms. Hazard isn't back yet, which makes me feel good because we don't have to do our sight reading test yet. And my aiding is good, still enjoy living in the library. Wouldn't want anything else than that!

Day 102

Today's been a pretty good day. Very chill, very relax. Actually, not much seemed to happen today. Kind of like it but don't a bit.

Day 101

I only had my art class today and I have gotten pretty far with my piece. Now I know the direction in which to bring this piece to life, to make more interesting and create more character with, but I won't be able to finish it by Friday, that I know, so I'll have to talk to the teacher about a time extension. It's only the first assignment but I'm very excited about it. The first time I did a still life I didn't get as involved as I am now, probably because I was shy and didn't really know what I was doing. Now I'm very out there with my art. There is a part of me that wants to hold back, but, instead, I remind myself to keep pushing my limits, pushing my values, pushing my imagination and eye. This is what will make me a better artist, a better writer. Being able to convey to another person what it is that you see, think, and feel is what puts beauty in the world.

Day 100

Presentations all hour long for Biology. There were some pretty interesting ones and then others that weren't as great just because I was really tired and done with school even though it had just started. Personal Finance we continued our research paper and I helped out a friend with the stuff that he missed, only because I didn't want him to NOT graduate. And...choir...we did the exact same thing that we have been doing last week and this week....yay....

Day 99

Today happened to be a pretty easy day. Biology we've continued our study of the human brain, we actually did a PowerPoint about how smoking and drugs affected the brain and it happened to last for the entire hour - though it was specifically meant for little kids to enjoy. I have continued my still life but feel as if I am too far behind for all it is that I would like to convey in my piece. Personal Finance we took our chapter test today, which was pretty easy, then we got the chance to work on our Economies of the World research paper, and in choir - to pass the time - we are making our own music practice sheets as we wait - agonizingly - for our new music to come into the mail that we have to learn before February 26...two pieces...less than one month...this worries me.

Day 98

If it hadn't had been for the greatest gift ever, today would have really been one of those really boring days. What was this most awesome surprise that made my day? Well, my old choir teacher came and saw us after school today! Yes, it was quite exciting, especially since it's been almost a year in May. Mr. Stone has been doing pretty well in Denver, teaching a freshman choir class of 90 students, and an awesome women's chorus! he also showed us how he added on to his music tattoo and it looks amazing! Truly, I am happy for him, because Mr. Stone has done so much for me in the past two years that I knew him and he pushed me to always do better and to never quit what it is that I love no matter what others say. If it hadn't been for Mr. Stone there would be a piece of me that would be empty and unfulfilled. The greatest gift that he ever gave me was the ability to see beauty and showed me how to express that beauty to others. I am forever in his debt.

Day 97

Today was...alright, in the least to say. We had a sub in Biology so we got to watch the behind the scenes for Planet Earth, the GREATEST documentary about Earth I have ever seen. Then we worked some more on our still life and I'm sad to say I spent more than an hour drawing a bowl. Oh, not JUST drawing a bowl but adding the shades and making it more proportionate. Yeah, I'll post a picture of the still life when it's finished and when it looks better than it does right now.

Personal Finance we had to do a worksheet about a random country we chose and we have to write a research paper over the country's economy and if we would want to live in that economy. Choir we did this cool yet really strange thing were we split into quartets and had to sing a measure around a circle, so quartet 1 sang measure 1, quartet 2 sang measure 2, quartet 3 sang measure 3, etc. It was alright except for the fact there were only three Alto 2 people so we had to run across our circles just to sing with another quartet. Yeah, and then I stayed after school to work more on my art project.

Day 96

Today was an alright day. There were no internet outages and that made my day as a library aid easier, and I didn't have very much homework to do. I did work more on my still life and I feel I'm not any closer to where I want to be, especially with the dead line next week.

Day 95

No school yesterday (Thanks MLK Jr.), so we had school on a block day. We did our presentations for Biology today and mine turned out alright, I still don't like making speeches or talking in front of a big crowd, which won't help for when I want to become a teacher. Personal Finance we also presented our goals to the class, which I thought was kind of stupid, but whatever. Choir we're still singing that ONE SONG. So far we're almost finished memorizing it, but still....and for the first half of the class we had to come up with our own warm up solfege - basically a music exercise and we had to come up with words too! Gotta love it...

Day 94

At long freaking last! It's Friday! That means I have five more months until I'm eighteen! Yay! So excited!!! Not much happened today, but next Friday we have a pep assembly and we're taking our Senior class picture. Not a bad way to end my week, but I just took a shift for my friend so now I've got to go to work!

Day 93

Kill me now! I can't believe it's only Thursday and not Friday! Biology we only took some notes, I'm not even a quarter of the way finished with my art project due next week!, Personal Finance is a bore at the moment, aiding is alright, and choir we're singing the same song, still waiting for our next piece to tackle.

Day 92

So far my day has not been going as expected. The school Wifi is down. Yes. The freaking Wifi is down. So, as a library aid, I can't check out books, I can't get any of my homework done. Right now, I'm typing this on my notepad on my phone and will probably post this when I get home. Yep, I kind of dislike charter right now.

Day 91

Biology we're working on a powerpoint about the Brain and we're supposed to present it next week for the class. Personal Finance we're still on our goal setting and we're still singing in choir. Sorry, I'm just not feeling it today. I had enough shit from yesterday, but tomorrow will be better. It has to be.

Day 90

I'm kind of thankful for the late starts, but then again I'm not, because the times always confuse me. Why can't we just get out of school earlier? I wouldn't mind that. Besides that, today was an alright day. It was really simple; did some notes in Biology, doing my still life portrait for art that's supposed to be due next week (NO PRESSURE!), my Personal Finance class we're doing this goal setting stuff, choir we're still working on our song Set Me As A Seal, and my aiding is just fantastic. Yeah, it's going good so far.

Oh yeah, except for the fact that it's the anniversary of my grandmother's death and my boyfriend dumped me last night at midnight and it was our anniversary. Yeah, other than that my day couldn't get any better.

Day 89

Didn't go to my Biology or Art class, but in Personal Finance we watched this video about Dave Ramsey and saving money or something, choir we had a sub and we sang. It was easy day.

Day 88

Still kind of getting used to the schedule, but it was kind of a slow day over. We got our terms for Biology that are due next week, we're getting ready to start a still life drawing in art, still getting settled in for Personal Finance, we got our first song in Choir, and library aiding is still fun. This semester might actually not be that bad.

Day 87

What I predicted came true! I only had to go to one class today since that's how my Wednesday classes worked out, though I do aid the entire afternoon, but I practically eat, breathe, and live in the library. I'm kind of excited for the art class, but I'm kind of worried because the art teacher is new and isn't like my last art teacher who knew me so well. Easy day overall. Pretty excited.

Day 86

As truth, the first day back to school is ALWAYS the hardest. For the past two weeks I have slept in till noon and gone to bed at two in the morning. Yes, I loved it! But the transition back was difficult, especially trying to get my schedule together. Also, it was weird that we started school on a Tuesday, especially since that Tuesday is a block day, meaning I only got to go to half of my classes. So here's the schedule:

1-2: Release
3: CMU Biology
4: Drawing and Painting 1
5: Personal Finance
6: Library Aid
7: Las Cantantes
8: Library Aid

In truth, it's a pretty easy schedule, but I already found out that having Personal Finance as a block is VERY boring. Love what the class has to offer, but the first day was a bust. Didn't miss doing our voice placements in choir, especially when it looks like my teacher is going to keep me in Alto the entire freaking school year. Yeah, today was an alright day, though I know tomorrow's going to be easy as heck.