Day 63

It was alright, especially since in biology we got to watch Atlantis: The Lost Empire (my favorite Disney movie!). Then, we watched a documentary about the Civil Rights movement in Modern Lit and we get our books yesterday called Black Like Me, about a white guy who turns black in the 1950s. It's just the same old day and the same old life.

Day 62

What's there to say? I am exhausted. My manager has scheduled me for 24 hours this week. 24 hours. That's a lot of hours. Sure, good for the money, but I don't have enough time on my hands to do that. Also, they usually schedule me from 8-11:30pm now, they have me close and I don't even get a 4, sometimes a 3, hour shift. Sorry, I'm just exhausted. Really exhausted.

Day 61

I'm losing my cool, I'm just lucky no one else around me has seen it happen. I'm having a pretty difficult time with my parents. Sure, most teenagers do, that's a given, but, I don't know, it's really hard to explain it without sounding like a spoiled brat. It's just I'm working really hard, with school and with my job, and I would REALLY appreciate it if my parent's could at least just help me out here. I need a car so that I can get to school and to work. Don't tell me to work for it, because I am, believe me. But, from my understanding, I can't get my license until I get my car, because my mother won't let me use her car so that I can drive to school in case something happens to my baby brother (isn't that why people call 911?) and I'm not driving my dad's because I don't know how to work a stick shift. In truth, this is happening exactly as it happened to my sister last year - I'm not going to get my car with the help of my parents, but, if my parents had their way, I wouldn't get my license until I turned 18, then they wouldn't have to worry about taking me down to the DMV or helping me get my car. Let me tell you something; it is EMBARRASSING to have to have your parents drive you to your graduation. What do I mean? I mean exactly what I say, because when graduation comes, it's a whole new chapter, and having my parents drive me to it is like a symbol saying that I'm going to rely on my parents for the rest of my life to take me where I need to go, to hold my hand when I get hurt. Sure, my parents are going to help me later in life, that's what parents do, but I don't want them to treat me like a broken child, I want to be an adult who can fend for myself, I want to be able to do things on my own, but, right now, I need their help to get me there. Is that so much or too hard to ask for?

Day 60

I'm not going to spend too much time on this post. Just wanted to say that CMAS has indeed made me feel very stupid. I LOVE social studies, almost anything to do with history I enjoy, but I didn't understand a lot of the test, especially since it was mainly all about economics rather than history. I'm serious; throw questions at me about the Revolutionary war, the Seven Years war (French and Indian), anything to do with history! But I haven't even taken my economics class yet. I'm really disappointed in the test.

Day 59

It's been pretty nice because my best friend Maggie has been subbing at school. I don't get to see her very often, so it really tickles me that I get to see her more! Also, we're starting on our Celtic mythology, taking lots of notes and planning on reading Beowulf. American Gov was, as usual, filled with lots of notes, and Creative Writing was spent writing. I love how I FINALLY got a story idea stuck in my head. Already I've filled eight pages worth of it in my composition book. I should probably get back to doing that, because my writing waterfall is overflowing with ideas!

Day 58

Due to our testing, Mr. Miller decided to let us watch the Lorax today. For the test, we've been split into three groups; Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. I'm on Thursday this week and next week. Anyway, it was just a pretty easy day. We did some worksheets for the civil rights movement for Modern Lit, practiced our music in choir. Can't say we did much of anything.

Day 57

Back to school, right? Well, Seniors had a meeting today about this stupid test we have to take in order to graduate; CMAS. It's supposed to test us on our social studies and science skills from eighth grade all the way to senior year. I think it's a load of crap. Not only do we not have any way for us to study for this test, but there's more than likely stuff I'm not going to know about. Also, it's senior year, I thought we were done with all the standardized testing, I thought we were finally free of having been decided of how to live our lives to an average score. This really pisses me off.