Friday, October 31, 2014
Day 56
Just want to state that, not only is the number of this post my favorite number, but TODAY is my favorite DAY and HOLIDAY! Today, I dressed up as Dia De Los Muertos - Senorita Death. Yes, I was a Mexican day of the dead girl for those who don't understand. It went pretty well, I wish I had gotten a really good picture of it, but I'll probably wear it again next year or something. Not a lot happened today, especially since it was Halloween, but school seemed to have continued to resume anyway. How BORING! Still, nothing can ruin my mood that I always carry with me every Halloween.
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Day 55
We, the Seniors, class of 2015, have to take a freaking test in order to graduate this year. Another test?! Yes, and we have to go over Science and Social Studies from 8th grade to 12th grade. I don't know if any of you guys would be freaking out, but I am freaking the fuck out! The test is next freaking week, and we have no way of studying for it. From my freaking understanding, in order to graduate, we have to pass this test, doesn't matter if we've got our credits and paid our dues, we have to pass this to graduate. Not sure, but if that is the thing, I'll be talking to some pretty important people and call bull shit on this. If that's not the case, awesome! Still, freaking out.
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Day 54
Mythology happened to turn out pretty good; we watched the Ramayana, at least the Indian animated story telling of it. It was pretty good, especially the part after Sita gets kidnapped and Rima has to go to the monkeys to get her back - their musical number was pretty funny.
Government, we are creating an argument over which President was better at certain categories that they are supposed to hold to. I got President James Garfield. Yeah, the guy who only served for about 4 months until he was assassinated. I'd tell you what I have, but I'm not gonna chance my classmates reading in on this. I'll tell you guys if I remember next week, after the debate.
Government, we are creating an argument over which President was better at certain categories that they are supposed to hold to. I got President James Garfield. Yeah, the guy who only served for about 4 months until he was assassinated. I'd tell you what I have, but I'm not gonna chance my classmates reading in on this. I'll tell you guys if I remember next week, after the debate.
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Day 53
A little late to class today, but the corrections went just fine. Actually, I was quite surprised when I answered my questions and looked back at all the ones I got wrong. Like, I knew what a lot of them were, but I just don't understand what happened the day that I took the test? Did I just suddenly blank out or something? I mean, come on, I knew it all! Just pretty bummed that my score was that terrible.
Then, in Modern Lit, we had to write an essay for class today. Yeah, it was pretty good and all, until the end where Ms. Johnston comes up to my group and sees that I wrote on the front and back side of the paper. Oh my gosh, she looked upset. I guess she said that we were supposed to take out three pages of paper and only write on the front of the paper and not on the back so she doesn't have to turn the paper just to read the back. Come on! Are you kidding? So, Cay and I tried it out, and we proved that if you were just reading the fronts, you'd still have to flip the page and LOOK AT THE BACK OF THE PAGE. I swear, if I get marked down for writing on the back of my notebook paper, I'm really going to be pissed,
And then, my day seemed just to get better (please note the sarcasm). We got our third piece of music today and, just for our Christmas concert, it was about Jesus. No! Not ONLY was it about Jesus, but it was about Jesus slaying "Satan" and defeating him to restore peace and good to the world. Sorry, I just find this ironic, because, not two nights ago, I spoke to my Goddess, and told her my views on Lucifer. (To any of those who read this and are very religious, just go ahead and skip this, I imagine you already did when you read the word "Goddess" but I'm warning you just in case, because it will probably go against what you believe).
Here's the thing; I do not believe that Lucifer defied his father so that he could be God, I do not believe that Lucifer is the sole entity of evil, I do believe that Lucifer loved his father so much that he would have done anything for him except risk his being (his reason of existence), I do believe that Lucifer was wronged, I do believe that - if there is evil in this world - it was in God first if we were created in his image. Now, I understand Lucifer's feelings, I know because I practically worshiped my father, I loved him with all my heart and being, I took his side on matters before my mother's, and I would have given up almost anything for him. Then, he asked me to give up something important to me, something that was me, and I said no. Then, not once, but twice, he disowned me. See, I was disowned for staying true to myself, something that Lucifer did, and I was the outcast of my family - still am - just like Lucifer. I don't blame Lucifer for hating his father, I am the exact same! But, because he's my family, there is only a small part of my being that holds love for my father, and, when the day comes he does something to wrong me again, that will always be there, but it will slowly diminish.
Now, to sing a song about Jesus destroying Lucifer, praising him for his destiny of triumph, I cannot abide by. You know what? If Jesus was such a savior, he would pull what Aang did in Avatar the Last Airbender to the Firelord. (Skip to 3:10 to understand what I mean, fans who know what I'm talking about, bless you).
Anyway, I don't agree with the song at all, I don't want to ever praise a brother for killing his brother (half-brother?) because his father tells him to. If my father told me that the only way I could ever have his love was to kill my sister or else he would make her kill me, I would beat the shit out of him. My sister would have had nothing to do with what would be going on between my father and I, he would have just put her in the middle of OUR problem to use her to do his dirty work and/or to get to me. It is a poor father that would rather kill his child instead of trying to work things out.
Then, in Modern Lit, we had to write an essay for class today. Yeah, it was pretty good and all, until the end where Ms. Johnston comes up to my group and sees that I wrote on the front and back side of the paper. Oh my gosh, she looked upset. I guess she said that we were supposed to take out three pages of paper and only write on the front of the paper and not on the back so she doesn't have to turn the paper just to read the back. Come on! Are you kidding? So, Cay and I tried it out, and we proved that if you were just reading the fronts, you'd still have to flip the page and LOOK AT THE BACK OF THE PAGE. I swear, if I get marked down for writing on the back of my notebook paper, I'm really going to be pissed,
And then, my day seemed just to get better (please note the sarcasm). We got our third piece of music today and, just for our Christmas concert, it was about Jesus. No! Not ONLY was it about Jesus, but it was about Jesus slaying "Satan" and defeating him to restore peace and good to the world. Sorry, I just find this ironic, because, not two nights ago, I spoke to my Goddess, and told her my views on Lucifer. (To any of those who read this and are very religious, just go ahead and skip this, I imagine you already did when you read the word "Goddess" but I'm warning you just in case, because it will probably go against what you believe).
Here's the thing; I do not believe that Lucifer defied his father so that he could be God, I do not believe that Lucifer is the sole entity of evil, I do believe that Lucifer loved his father so much that he would have done anything for him except risk his being (his reason of existence), I do believe that Lucifer was wronged, I do believe that - if there is evil in this world - it was in God first if we were created in his image. Now, I understand Lucifer's feelings, I know because I practically worshiped my father, I loved him with all my heart and being, I took his side on matters before my mother's, and I would have given up almost anything for him. Then, he asked me to give up something important to me, something that was me, and I said no. Then, not once, but twice, he disowned me. See, I was disowned for staying true to myself, something that Lucifer did, and I was the outcast of my family - still am - just like Lucifer. I don't blame Lucifer for hating his father, I am the exact same! But, because he's my family, there is only a small part of my being that holds love for my father, and, when the day comes he does something to wrong me again, that will always be there, but it will slowly diminish.
Now, to sing a song about Jesus destroying Lucifer, praising him for his destiny of triumph, I cannot abide by. You know what? If Jesus was such a savior, he would pull what Aang did in Avatar the Last Airbender to the Firelord. (Skip to 3:10 to understand what I mean, fans who know what I'm talking about, bless you).
Anyway, I don't agree with the song at all, I don't want to ever praise a brother for killing his brother (half-brother?) because his father tells him to. If my father told me that the only way I could ever have his love was to kill my sister or else he would make her kill me, I would beat the shit out of him. My sister would have had nothing to do with what would be going on between my father and I, he would have just put her in the middle of OUR problem to use her to do his dirty work and/or to get to me. It is a poor father that would rather kill his child instead of trying to work things out.
Monday, October 27, 2014
Day 52
Today has been a long day. Just got the results for my Biology test (58%) and hopefully I'll get to do a TON of corrections tomorrow, because I'm really going to need it. Mythology was boring, but we have to read an Indian epic, which is all kinds of strange for me. And we're talking about Genetic Mutations and how advanced its become today, relating it to Modern Lit, and I've been taking notes over the powers of the president for Government, and it's just been such a long day.
I've actually been thinking about getting a new job, but it'll probably happen more around March than next month.
I've actually been thinking about getting a new job, but it'll probably happen more around March than next month.
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Simple Rant
I'm kind of freaking out because I don't know what to do with the rest of my life at the moment. My best friend says I should just go to college to get a good job, but everyone else says I should set myself up for a career. And the things that I want to do for the rest of my life, I keep getting told that you can't make a living off of. What is it that I want to do? I want to major in Art, Singing, and Creative Writing. All of which I guess you can't make a good living off of. And then, I get told to go after my dreams and not let the world stop me, but those same people tell me what I can and can't do.
I have considered alternatives. I thought about being an English teacher, an Egyptologist, do something to travel the world, but even these have gotten shot down. Is there nothing I can do that everyone will just shut up about? I want to do things that make me happy, but I'm a Gemini; learning about everything would make me happy, doing something liberal and artistic would make me happy. Now why can't I just have the courage to tell people this?
I have considered alternatives. I thought about being an English teacher, an Egyptologist, do something to travel the world, but even these have gotten shot down. Is there nothing I can do that everyone will just shut up about? I want to do things that make me happy, but I'm a Gemini; learning about everything would make me happy, doing something liberal and artistic would make me happy. Now why can't I just have the courage to tell people this?
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Day 51
Today, I missed Mythology, more than likely failed another test in Government, and spent half of my 8th hour doing a test to help out the administration and the rest of it over at the Maverick, hanging out with some friends over there. Yeah, it was just a day. No school tomorrow or Friday, but I work for the rest of the week...not how I wanted to spend this week.
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