Day 41

It's here; my concert is tomorrow night! I'm so excited and so nervous. What if we don't do so good? I mean, every time we have a concert, our practice goes smooth and amazing, but when we actually sing in front of the audience, we mess up because of our nerves. what if this is what's going to happen? We've all worked too hard to mess up and be talked about like we are a regular Women's Chorus instead of an advanced one. I know I've gone too far and done too much to even do that.

I've been writing a bit more than usual lately. I guess I have Mr. Herring to thank for that a little, but my problem is that I don't know what to write about. My head is like an empty canvas and I NEED to know what to paint and who's story to tell. If I can't do that, then what kind of writer am I? Exactly, it means that I'm not one. If I can't tell a story I'm not a writer, if I can't create amazing details where the hero and story comes to life, then I'm not a Creative Writer. I just feel like I need to get my head in the game.

Day 40

I hate those tests that you get on Monday over something important and you just spent the entire weekend just forgetting about everything that includes school. Yeah, well, we had a test over Brave New World today. So far, I'm kind of enjoying the book a bit, I just dislike how much homework that we've got to do. I also dislike the classes where it's an elective and not required, and the teachers even tell you that it's not required and assures you that it's supposed to be an easy as hell class, but they grade you like a college class. I know, I'm going to college soon, but if the teachers really wanted us to start acting like it, they should have started making us act like it in Freshman year so that we could be prepared. Yeah, it's a little of my fault too, but I feel like the problem can be equally shared for this.

Sorry, I kind of worked late last night, so I'm still trying to get my bearings.

Day 39

Finally! It's Friday! If you lived in Fruita, Colorado, you'd know what this means....Fruita Fall Fest!!!! It's basically a festival for the coming of fall full of vendors and rides, and food. It's also one of the best times to buy Christmas presents. Tonight we're going to have our family BBQ and go to the festival and play poker. Yeah, it's going to be pretty tight.

Today, all that really happened at school was our Greek vocab test that I bet I BOMBED and we had an organelles paper that we did that I totally didn't study for.

Day 38

So, Mythology is going alright, still a college like class, except we're watching the extended version of Lord of the Rings. We've gone through Norse mythology, Egyptian, and Mesopotamian. While watching Lord of the Rings, we've had to find connections that Tolkien took from the Norse myth Sigurd the Volsung, and, let me tell you, there are quite a few. That Tolkien is pretty sneaky, trust me.

That's about it so far.,.

Day 37

Man today was such a pain! I swear, Modern Lit is going to be the death of me. Don't remember if I mentioned it, but we're reading Brave New World and I swear it's like my AP US History class all over again. In US History, our chapters were longer, but we'd have to read them and have notes done and have a test done by the next day. A chapter per day. It sucked. Now, it's happening all over in Modern Lit!

Also, the concert is coming up! Less than a week now! I'm excited but nervous at the exact same time. I'm just worried about Dry Your Tears Afrika. I'm still having trouble memorizing when to come in at the right now and so on. I don't really like our Sing Dem Hern song either.

Yep, pretty much all for now. Ta ta.

Day 36

Didn't go to school today! What's nice is my mom will let me do that like only a couple of times, though I'm trying to change it to at least once a month (hey, a girl's gotta do homework!).

Day 35

Today's been a pretty slow day. The Choir Retreat was a success, and a lot of fun too. Today we just had a test in Mythology and Modern Lit is hard as hell, even though it's not a College Class. Just a lot of singing and I turned in my Poem Portfolio. Hopefully my D will go up now!

Day 34

I'm am so excited! Tonight is the Choir retreat!!! I imagine it's going to be so much fun and there's going to be so much singing! Sorry, that's pretty much the only thing that I've been thinking about all day. Our concert is coming up in seven school days, and I've pretty much memorized "Prayer of the Children", "Sing Dem Hern", and a little bit about "Come to the Music". Also, our American Gov test was today, something that I'm pretty sure that I passed! Gah!!! Yep, and then today has just really been about thinking about colleges and applications, scholarships and things I need. Yep, that's all folks!

2 Weeks until Fall Break

6 Weeks until Thanksgiving Break

14 Weeks until Christmas Break

Day 33

Today happened to be a pretty chill day. Kind of ditched the last hour of school today (oops! ;)).

Day 32

So, Cay and I had planned earlier about going out to breakfast for two weeks and last night she told me that she wasn't able to, so my dad took me out to breakfast. Today he's flying out to Kansas with a couple other guys so that he can drive new trucks down to his work, something he's not very excited about, but he doesn't argue if it gives him hours.

Also, in Mythology, our teacher, Mrs. Ludwig, was gone. We had a sub who was pretty chill, Mrs. Bennett I believe. Anyway, we were supposed to watch a youtube video about Thor, but the video was no longer available, so we went straight to the reading and I guess Mrs. Ludwig thought that the reading would take the rest of the period, but it didn't. SO! Mrs. Bennett actually put Netflix up and had us watch the Croods. I believe Thor the movie is on there, but I'm not going to argue with The Croods, that movie is way too cute.

In American Gov today we sat through two grueling hours of our mini-presidential debates. The topics were supposed to jump back and forth between class topics and national issues, but it just stayed at national issues, and Taylor wasn't able to talk very much because Carlos wouldn't let her. Yeah, how nice. Still going to vote for Taylor though.

Man, in Creative Writing, I just went to the library, talked to my mom, and then went home. I still need to write five more poems, but that class is pretty boring a little. The only reason I use it is to just go to the library, really.

Day 31

Today was such a long day. In Biology we watched continued our movie about the human body, both in its awesomeness and disturbing way. Then we worked on an enzyme project that we did in Sophomore year! I kinda wish that I kept some of that stuff now so I could use it for my college class, tee hee. Then, for Modern Lit, each group had to make a different powerpoint and ours was about the Regulation on Scientific Discovery and the Media. What sucked was most of my group didn't show up until the last minute. Powerpoint is due on Thursday, I just hope we get to finish in time.

Last, but not least, Choir was pretty good. We got our music down pretty good, we still don't have them all memorized, but we're going to have to. Also, Ms. Hazard showed us this presentation about Vocal Chords and what happens when you don't take care of them (basically you can't sing), which grossed everyone out. It would of grossed me out too, but I watched something similar in Biology yesterday!

Day 30

A month already! It's been way too long for school, I swear! Last night I spent the night at my friend Maggie's house and she was kind enough to bake some muffins and take me to school this morning. We started watching a movie in Biology about the Human body and how it works, we're continuing Norse mythology and sometime next week we're going to watch Lord of the Rings.

Modern Lit we're starting a new book, but we have to do research about organizations that withhold scientific discovery or anything to do with the media. American Gov we're still doing our presidential debates until we choose the President of our class - no doubt Taylor Valentine is going to win! Also, our Choir retreat is coming up this Friday, something I'm not sure about doing, but kind of excited about. And then Mr. Herring was back today (he has a baby boy!) and going to the library was pretty good.

So parent teacher conferences are coming up Thursday, which means I need to bring my grades up before then so that my teachers won't disappoint my parents, they already got a letter in the mail about how my GPA is going down. They don't get how straineous (?)  it is to take so many classes, especially those that aren't required for my transcript but required for our school to get state funding. If my father knew he would be so pissed off, he would go down and talk to the Principal himself and demand that something be changed. Yeah, that's probably one of the cool things about my dad. Shame I can't see him. Anyways, see ya!

Day 29

Go Wildcats!

Today was the Pep assembly, and the thing that I hated about it was the fact it was so short and that Drum Line didn't get to play. The Drum Line always gets to play, it's what gets us excited for the Homecoming game. Instead, Senoirs, Juniors, and Sophomores were separated while we got to get talked to about Class Rings and Graduation. Thing is, a lot of the stuff we had to do was very boring and a lot of the things and prices for Graduation are outrageous, especially since we have to have a down payment for Graduation next wednesday! Yeah, they're lucky I get paid on Wednesday!

After lunch, Cay and I decided to go home, and she was kind enough to drop me off at my house. So, I'm just waiting until I have to go to work tonight, which I happen to close!

3 Weeks of School until Fall Break!

7 Weeks of School until Thanksgiving Break!

15 Weeks of school until Christmas Break!

Day 28

So, since I just LOVE watching old movies, I decided to watch mine at the very last minute. In fact, so last minute that I got to school today and tried to watch it on Netflix! Of course, our school doesn't allow Netflix, which happens to really suck when I need to get a homework assignment finished. So, I was just busy trying to do nothing and act like it was something today!

Day 27

I am so exhausted! I swear, it's like I don't EVER get enough sleep (yes it's my fault, I know). Today we took a lot of notes in Mythology, especially since our new unit is Norse mythology ( Odin, Thor, Loki, Balder, Freya, Frey, Frigga, etc.) and it was all pretty interesting. Then we did our Presidential Candidates in American Government, which went pretty smoothly. According to my little test that I took, I'm more liberal than conservative, but I also am very close to the middle, still, I chose Taylor Valentine and Noah Turner.

This week Mr. Herring, my Creative Writing teacher, had a baby! So he's been over at the hospital with his wife with their baby, while the rest of us have a substitute. Yeah, today was just really really boring. I work tonight!

Day 26

I hate how I really want to sleep, but then I just go to bed at 11 in the evening and wake up at 6 for the bus. Yeah, kind of hate it. Lately I've been busy watching Game of Thrones and it's been taking up most of my time, especially with Danerys! Love House Targaryen!!!

Any way, I forgot that this week is actually Homecoming week. Yeah, I'm not too excited about it, and its not really something that I'm looking forward to. Today we took our exam for Biology, and we got our vocab for the next Unit, also we watched Tora! Tora! Tora! in Modern Lit today, an event in history that my teacher, Mrs. Johnson loves to talk about, especially since her family was in the war (who's wasn't?). Also, Choir. Lots and lots of singing. Yeah, that's about it.

Ta ta.

Day 25

I went up to Mr. Miller today and apologized for my cuts, and he told me not to apologize for it and that it meant a lot to him that I trusted him enough to come to him for help. See, I met Miller two years ago; he was my sophomore Biology teacher and I enjoyed his class so much, and we to be kind of friends, if teachers and students can be friends. Anyway, he's just been there for me a lot and we have good history, so for us to have more good history makes me feel positive. I know that if I had any problems that Miller would always have my back and help me in whatever way he could.

Thanks again, Miller.

Today, my friend and I finished our Owl Pellet lab for Biology and it ended up with me having VERY sticking fingers! Mythology was kind of a drag, but Modern Lit. is a breeze so far. Mrs. Johnson loves talking about WW2 so much that we're watching Tora! Tora! Tora! in class so that we can get a better understanding of WWII. American Gov is pretty good so far, I like all the notes we're taking in class, though that sounds nerdy/weird.

Now, on to Choir. Here's the thing; I'm starting to hate choir right now. The music is getting  to me, especially with how religious it is and christian and all. Like I said before, I'm PAGAN, so to have to sing Jesus makes me feel insulted. If you're Christian having to sing a religion song and having to say Allah, I bet you might dislike it if you don't like Muslims (not hating here!). Also, please remember how I talked to my Choir teacher about how uncomfortable I was about saying this and she told me to just try to think of my Gods while I sing the world "Jesus". I don't know about you, but that is just wrong, disturbing, and confusing. Seriously? Jesus isn't even a part of my faith and I told you about it, yet you're still telling me to just go on? I'm kind of fed up about it. Actually, I'm really fed up about it. I told my parents that if worse comes to worse I'm going to quit Choir, something that I NEVER wanted nor want to do. I don't know, that's just me.

Day 25

Wow, today's been a REALLY slow day. Yesterday was better, though. My best friend, Cay, and I went out and hung out for a bit. Yes, Old Chicago's and the Panaderia, and Ross! So much fun! Today there's not much that I've been doing. Yet another short and simple day.

Day 24

I really want to start doing this thing where I honor everyone who ever helps me, especially this year. Well, this award goes to my favorite science teacher Mr. Miller.

What happened that should allow him to have such an award?

Well, last night I wasn't feeling too great, as you may have noticed, so I made a mistake and I cut myself several times (I've been doing this for seven years now and have gone to many therapists mind you) and this morning I went up to Mr. Miller and told him that I had made a mistake last night and that I needed his help to at least hide it a little. He asked me what it was and I showed him my arm. Whenever I have shown people my scars I have seen them recoil in disgust or surprise, my father often looked at them in disappointment, my mother with fear, but Mr. Miller's look was a mix of shock and worry and something that I can't place but something that I needed very much. He was also kind enough to get some bandage wrap so that I could hide it and helped me to come up with the story that I gave blood (in a way).

Point being, I'm sure he was freaked out as hell and could have sent me to talk to the counselor so that I could get myself checked out for depression or for a therapist to mark me as some stupid symptom, but he chose to help me, and he gave me kind words when I needed it. So, thank you Mr. Miller for helping me with this one thing, because you have now and always will make a difference in my life.

Ta ta for now!

Day 23

Not today. Today I don't feel so good.

Day 22

Let me tell you, sleeping in is SO freaking nice, especially when your best friend is willing to pick you up since you need the sleep and you don't have a car/license yet. Also, Tiffany brought me lunch from Wendy's today, which I loved! So nice, it was. Also I got out of 8th hour earlier than usual so my mother could take me to Walmart and get new shoes for work, but then I didn't have to work until 8 so we went shopped around for Halloween stuff as we let the time slip away for a bit. Just to let you know, I LOVE LOVE LOVE Halloween, it's my holiday. I bought some Halloween shirts and decorations, also I'm thinking about being a Khaleesi for Halloween! Should be fun. Well, got to go to work so see ya!

Day 21

Yesterday was nice, especially since there wasn't any school! Finally, a month come and gone! Today my CMU Biology class toured the Colorado Mesa University campus, which was freaking amazing! Even though I happen to be very familiar with the campus, I still couldn't help but fall in love with it even more. Like, the swimming pool they have? They allow ANYONE to use it ANYTIME, they even tell everyone that too! The gym they have is pretty awesome too, and the campus is pretty big. They also have some pretty good choices for dorms, but I'll probably be staying with my parents for my Freshman year. Also, today was Write A Book In A Year club, something that Cay reminded me to go to. 

In Modern Lit. we just did a test over the book Hiroshima. We're supposed to watch the movie Tora, Tora, Tora now. Then in Choir started at 1:08 yet we didn't even start singing until 2:05. Most of the time was spent talking about the New York trip and the Choir Retreat that's coming up on the 19th. I wouldn't mind us talking about it, but since we have 5 pieces to learn, I would like to practice and practice until we are more than comfortable with them, especially since our concert is October 1st. 

Yeah, that was pretty much my day. Tiffany, my sister is spending the night tonight, so we'll see how well that goes. See ya!