Day 61

I'm losing my cool, I'm just lucky no one else around me has seen it happen. I'm having a pretty difficult time with my parents. Sure, most teenagers do, that's a given, but, I don't know, it's really hard to explain it without sounding like a spoiled brat. It's just I'm working really hard, with school and with my job, and I would REALLY appreciate it if my parent's could at least just help me out here. I need a car so that I can get to school and to work. Don't tell me to work for it, because I am, believe me. But, from my understanding, I can't get my license until I get my car, because my mother won't let me use her car so that I can drive to school in case something happens to my baby brother (isn't that why people call 911?) and I'm not driving my dad's because I don't know how to work a stick shift. In truth, this is happening exactly as it happened to my sister last year - I'm not going to get my car with the help of my parents, but, if my parents had their way, I wouldn't get my license until I turned 18, then they wouldn't have to worry about taking me down to the DMV or helping me get my car. Let me tell you something; it is EMBARRASSING to have to have your parents drive you to your graduation. What do I mean? I mean exactly what I say, because when graduation comes, it's a whole new chapter, and having my parents drive me to it is like a symbol saying that I'm going to rely on my parents for the rest of my life to take me where I need to go, to hold my hand when I get hurt. Sure, my parents are going to help me later in life, that's what parents do, but I don't want them to treat me like a broken child, I want to be an adult who can fend for myself, I want to be able to do things on my own, but, right now, I need their help to get me there. Is that so much or too hard to ask for?