Day 20

Today is not a good day for me. Today is my Uncle Terrence's birthday. He's not an asshole, so that's not why it's a bad day. Thing is he's been dead for almost twelve years now. in 2002, he committed suicide. The only uncle that I can remember and showed me love killed himself. And the sad part is I've been having bad thoughts recently, wanting to cut, wanting to die. Sorry I'm gonna cut this one short, but I just can't think about anything else right now. Sorry.